Suffering from Deep Heart Pain...

Lot's of fight with family...

Wanted to be angry but got a feeling of don't wan to angry...

Feel really okay in mood coz quite relief for the first time have a fight with family...

20th March 2009 Worst Day Ever

Today evening something terible happen...

Had a fight with my mom...

She deeply stab in my heart with those words...

I really sad...
Wanna look for a corner to cry...

13th March 2009 A Day Of Failure

Today had to went to school because school is organising a "Merentas Desa"...
I had a cup of Milo , 2 eggs without eggyorks for breakfast and some chocolates for instant energy...

Reach the school at arounf 6.45am...
Everyone is ready for the "Merentas Desa" to start...
Out of the blue...A piece of dark cloud had came to our area and started to rain...
Everyone's feeling upsets...

We waited for 1 hour and 30 minutes++...
It's around 8.25am...The rain had reduce...
After that teachers ask us all to get ready at the starting line...

I was already ready at the starting line...
And suddenly the gun shot sound had occur...
Everyone at the starting line start to run...but I'm walking all the way out with Chung Weng and the others =.=''
When i walked to a place nearly to our school back gate...
I've started to jog with Chung Weng...and i pass through Verenia and MayLi...
It started to rain again at this moment...
I continue my jogging and not to slow down or speed up...
Passed through the Check Point 1 by 1...
Until the Check Point 5 , my stamina was very low right now but i still continue my jogging...
And finally reach the road exit of my school and I started to speed up with Chung Weng...
We reach the school together but we didn't get the top 20...
VERY SAD~~~
But still i think it's a nice try for me to jog with my friends in the rainy day...

12th March 2009 Night...

Spend almost whole day to fix a scale model with my beloved Brother...

After fixing the scale model...

I feel really happy because it is so NICE!!!

12th March 2009 HAPPY DAY!!!

Morning wake up at 6am like usual to get ready to go to school...
Nothing special today in school...
But there is something special after school...
Finish school at 1.10pm...
Went out the the usual spot as usual to wait for transport...
Today I follow Chung Weng to go for a Sales...
Feeling really excited...
Brought the whole bunch of money(saved by myself)around RM200+++to go for the Sales...
After reach the place...
I bought a few things :

a bunch of scale models...

OO Raiser(Gundam OO+ORaiser)Special Colour Edition...

Seravee Gundam...

Seraphim Gundam...

A Zoid scale model(special edition)...

2 Remote Controll Cars...

这几天，我的心灵被严重的创伤。。。
我的朋友。。。跑过来安慰我。。。
我为了什么生气，伤心，失望。。。
朋友不知道。。。心灵被严重的创伤的我。。。

我的情绪非常的乱。。。
朋友却不知情地乱劝一番。。。
结果使我的创伤更加痛苦。。。

还记得，去年的十二月假日时。。。
还说过：新的一年有新的开始。。。
可是我现在可不那么认为。。。

要哭的时候。。。
都哭不起来。。。因为男生哭起来不好看。。。

要发泄时。。。
却没东西可让我发泄。。。只好打墙壁。。。
有时还打到手都留出了红色的液体。。。
有时真想大叫来让心情顺畅。。。
可是又不敢。。。

Suddenly think of wat happen these days...

FUCK YOU!!!

THESE DAYS I'M REALLY PISSED OFF!!!!!
SO MANY THINGS HAPPEN BUT NONE OF THEM CHEERED ME UP!!!

SO MANY BAD THINGS HAPPEN AND ONE OF MY FRIEND STILL COME AND DISTURB ME!!!

SO DAMN FUCK!!!

FUCK!!!!!

Tonight is quite a sad day...

Actually tomorrow got the gathering of my gang(primary)...
It's only 4 people...

2 boys and 2 girls...No others...

It's me , Allan , Y.S. , P.L.

But at last...It's cancelled...

Because Y.S. is going to move really soon...

So her mom not allow her to go out...

Quite sad about this...

It has been 3 years I've not seen Y.S. ...

So today...I'm so dared to tell her my feeling about her...

It has been 3 years...I didn't tell her that i like her...

3 years had passed since standard 6...

My feelings about her were not changed a little bit...Of course!I still like her!!!

I wanted to give her protection , happiness , and comfortable...

Not because of wanna asking her our to say that i like her...

Because it has been 2 years...she never reply my message and today she finally reply me...

So I BRAVELY told her that i like her...

But I got REJECTED...But, we r still best friends!!!

Hope we can go out for a gathering nxt time together...

Feel really sad but never mind!!!

I'm still Young!!!

A Wonderful Day Had Been Ruined...

Today wake up 6.15am

To ready go for mountain(bukit) climbing with Chung Weng and his family...

The name of the mountain is "Bukit Gasing"...

It's really exhausting when climbing the hill...

Uphill , Downhill , Uphill , Downhill...

I and Chung Weng went for a round for 1 hour and 10 minutes...

It's really tiring...

After that we wait for cooling down and we change out clothes...

After changing the clothes...

We went for breakfast...

After the breakfast...

Chung Weng's daddy sent me back to my house on 12 noon...

I feeling really tired so i take a name immediately after i took a bath...

It's 12.15noon now...i might sleep til 5pm...becoz im so tired...

My mom wake me up at 3pm...

Just to ask me go out to lend my dad a hand on his work...

Came back to house around 5pm...

I check my blog and realise that john keep complaining about my B'day party post...

TODAY I DAMN TIRED...

AND HE JUST SIMPLY GO MY BLOG AND WRITE SOMETHING I DON'T LIKE...

MY MOOD TODAY WAS REALLY GOOD...

BUT IT RUINED BY YOUR MESSAGE ON CBOX!!!

I'M REALLY DAMN PISSED OFF ON YOU!!!JOHN!!!

JUST A LITTLE BIT THINGS THEN U GO AND COMPLAIN!!!

U MAKE ME PISSED OFF EVERYTIME BY THE WAY U DO THINGS...

I THOUGHT U EVEN SAID THAT U CHANGED URSELF TO A "GOOD" JOHN...

I DON'T THINK SO !!!!!

YOU ALWAYS THINK OF YOURSELF BUT NOT THE OTHERS !!!!!!!!!!

FUCK LAH!!!

EVERYDAY HE ALSO WAN TO DRIVE ME UP THE WALL!!!
WHY HE ONLY KNOW HOW TO SAY PEOPLE BUT NOT HIMSELF!!!

I AM DAMN PISSED OFF NOW!!!

HE SAYS THAT I ALWAYS "PLAY" COMPUTER!!!

HE SAYS THAT "SIT IN FRONT"OF COMPUTER MEANS "PLAY"!!!

I'M REALLY DAMN PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Presents...21st February 2009

a QuickSilver T-shirt gift by Hui Eu,THANKS...i appreciate it...

a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolate gift by Yi Huan,THANKS...

finishing this box u will c my size different...XD jkjk...

a packet of 30 piece "Masterpiece Glowing Starts"gift by Jia Lin,THANKS...
the rooftop of my room can become shiny liao...haha...

3 mouse pads from "Maple Story"was given by Renee Dharshan,THANKS...
i was goin to buy a mouse pad...thanks anyway...

a set of things(a mug,photo book and some sweets)given by Mun Kein,THANKS...

i got lot's of photo ^^...

a cute abd pretty mug given by Chun Hong,THANKS...

my family don't have to use my mug anymore...

a birthday card made by Chung Weng and John,THANKS

Happy Birthday to me~

This was"Arios Gundam"from the Anime series of "Gundam OO Season 2"...

i received it from John and Chung Weng,THANKS...

another gundam given by my friend,Ee Wern & Ee Lee...

they are my precious old friends...THANKS...

1 more gundam from my friend...it's a BB Gundam...

it's from Jia Cheng...

A CD album gift by Verenia,THANKS...

got lot's of CD's at home...

A "3D PIN ART" thingy given by Pek Wan & Jya Xia,THANKS...
i will keep this well...

My B'Day Party...21st February 2009

It's a quite nice party this time...
If compare with my Standard 6 B'day Party,the party of this year will be a lot better...
but i didn't feel it's good enough... It's a quite nice party this time...
If compare with my Standard 6 B'day Party,the party of this year will be a lot better...
but i didn't feel it's good enough...
It was raining in the evening about 7pm...
sad lor...sob**sob**
coz this time is a BBQ party...Feeling too busy that i forgot to bring out the games i specially ready for the party...

It was raining in the evening about 7pm...
sad lor...sob**sob**
coz this time is a BBQ party...Feeling too busy that i forgot to bring out the games i specially ready for the party...

enjoy these pictures...

the one playing computer is Mun Kein,red t-shirt is Ee Lee and the one beside is Jhun Yang...

Chung Weng was taking pictures with his phone...but i take his first...haha...

everybody is watching the TV...

Ready to EAT!!!

not much...just show out a little bit of food that is for BBQ...

the BBQ thingy si cute...
haha

John BERLAGAK...

playing the games...

John BERLAGAK again...

yummy cake....

a beautiful cake that really nice and many tasty jellies...

My Friends singing the B'day song for me...

Making a wish...

Readying to cut the cake...

CUTTING!!!

still Cutting!!!

John loks really funny and 3rd time BERLAGAK...behind that was Verenia...

kekeke...

This is Jya Xia...she kena capture by camera...

Today went out to daddy's shop to help him work like usual...

Today also earn a little pocket money from daddy by helping him...

Just came back home from work only...

Feel really tired...

Today wanna sleep early...but i can't...

Still got so many things to do...

Many things have to prepare before tomorrow afternoon...

XD...

I've suffering everyday...
every moment...
feeling I'm nearing to become a monster...
everyone will go away from me...
I will scare everyone beside me away...
go on by slowly...
everyone's heart will appear hatred and anger about me...
my life is suffering...
until the day of death...

A DISASTER DAY!!!

my heart had totally broke down...
today is a disaster...

Nobody Ever Tried to Understand Me...
And Stop Pretending Like u Understand Me...
I Hate That...
If You Don't Understand...
Don't You Tell Me That You Understand Me...
I Wouldn't Mind To Share My Story With You...


This world is full of Hatred...
This world is full of Despair...
This world is full of Dissapointing...
This world is full of Lies...
This world is full of Evil...

Why would we live in this PATHETIC world?
Why couldn't we live in peace?

In those day...
We live in peace...
There are Evil deep in our heart...
One day, It began to burst out...

Everyone in this world had changed...
The Evil has almost concour our world...

Evil is located in the every corner of the world...
Mankind is full of hopeless...
Why don't we fight back?
WE CAN!!!
UNLESS U DON'T TRY!!!

WAH!!!

today i feel so sad lor...
after school i am going to stay back for my "Blue Team"...
after that is the "School Team Gymnastic Club"...
I and the teacher of "Club Gymnastic" feel so sad today...
BECAUSE...ONLY ME ALONE 1 People to go for the club...
the other had gone home...
hope next week all the members will gather here...
gud luCk~

I'm so sad...I want to express my feelings...

I wouldn't wan my dear fiends know about my pathetic life...
So this will be my first chinese handwriting in this blog...


一直以来，我很爱我的全家人，我很珍惜我的家人，我很关心他们。
我爱我的爸爸，我爱我的妈妈，我爱我的大姐，我爱我的哥哥，我爱我的二姐，
我爱我自己。

我的爸爸，妈妈，大姐都常常骂我...可是他们有理由骂我...
虽然他们常常骂我...可是我还是很爱他们...

我的二姐和哥哥就不一样了...
二姐 ： 她常常都跟朋友出门走街...所以我常常都会问起这几道问题
-你去哪儿呀？
-你今晚几晚回家呀？
-你跟谁出去呀？
她每次出街的时侯我才问以上的一道问题...
她却不知道我非常关心她...他却说：“你很烦啦！！！我出街又关你什么事？！？！”
听了那句话后我非常的伤心...
她把我的关心话或是劝告当作是“狗屎”...
重来都不听我的一句话...

哥哥 ：我的哥哥也是每天都骂人的...
时常都会为了一些小事而生气...
而且每天都找我出气...他的招牌昭示就是“只会说人不会说自己”
每天对着他我都厌倦了...

而且昨晚还被二姐狠狠地扭我的手臂...我就告诉你们那是怎样发生的 ：
就把那位小弟弟篇名成“A”吧...

昨天晚上，大概是9点左右...
我的亲戚到我的家拜年...（那亲戚就是我爸爸的弟弟）
A是暂时住在我叔叔的家...
A的双亲跟我叔叔的老婆是朋友...
因为有些事，所以才要A暂时住在他们的家...

事情就是这样的...
那时A一直在我的家找零食吃...
我很不介意，因为我家有很多东西吃...
我，堂哥，堂弟和堂姐坐在客厅吃些零食和玩牌...
A就坐在我旁边，因为它的年龄太小所以不可以玩...
我开了一包零食准备要吃的，结果A到我身旁说给些他吃...
然后堂姐就骂他别再吃了，所以我就不给他吃，刚好二姐从厨房出来...
他以为我在欺负A不让他吃零食...结果我就被二姐狠狠地扭了一顿还骂了我...

接下去的我就不想再写下去了...
下次再聊聊我的心情吧...

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!!!

sorry everyone...

sorry for late greetings...

bcoz im quite busy with my dad's work...

so i hope all my friends will b happy everyday in 2009!!!

today read Alison's blog...
feeling really "zadao" by the money folding part...

Today is a tired day!!!

gymnastic trainer ask me do a lot of training than usual...

feeling sleepy...